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Susan Terris
Leaves,
like the things of man
A
minus tide and a waning moon, yet no key. On
the littoral, only wrack and runes. Touch
me, Mister-here-yet-not. Hold my hand. Yesterday,
his ghost threw Sunday’s Times in
my face, a hooked pillow, bedroom slippers. Tonight,
in a false calm, I grieve, walking a
tideline strewn with gilted sand dollars. Tonight,
at Seder, I told the boys I’d destroy their $5
Lincolns if the afikomen was not returned. Tear
them, the eight-year-old said. Burn them. But
my son warned: Don’t ever dare her. Man-not-here
is out of dares and time and memory. I’m
chilled, but the prompt to tear and burn has has
led me here in search of some key. As
the undertow seethes out and in, footprints slick
away. No good-bye to the silence and
rage of dementia. The runes say I must, by
now, know both effect and cause, shadows
of unleaving and of loss. No dawn will
peach the horizon. No green flash. And
where is the door? Or the heart? This
is only land’s end, not the end. I may yet need
to lock him out. But I have no key.
Black Widow Mutation
He
was worried you’d bite off his head for putting compost
in with trash. Like the joke where a
husband asks, What have I done right? his worries increase
as his memories fray, and you must—yet again— swallow
hard. Now, the Black Widow has its appeal: a
male-muncher, freed from protective custody. Till death do
us part did not seem to imply death and death as
an endless cycle. Forget sucking out the richness of brain
matter. There’s little left. One clean bite might do. Though
it looks as if you’ve been crossed with
the silkworm genes you read about, bred to
spit a stronger thread, one not so easily broken. In
this mutant, transgenic state, you may have forgotten
how to kill and only remember to cocoon.
Fox Dream
Reynard
is camouflaged by sumac, Vixen. He
is in pursuit—will take you leave you take you.
His will, his way. He will make you ache to slink
and steal, will have you skulk in meadows, a
red singe at sunrise. Fox dream will cause your
teeth and the nights to grow long, will offer you
bones promising fresh, sweet marrow, a
hidden den of your own. But—beware
the fox dream with its pounce and sudden
bite, or you will keen in the shadows, hungry,
alone, desperate to be again silent, feral
and free.
Dingo Dream
Together,
we are feral, rolling in the sharp scent of
the dead, rolling and rutting and baying. Then
we rise and race until grassland and trees blur
to reels of yellow-green grosgrain. When
we’ve outstripped the pack, we seek full-moon
light, freshwater runnels, and
the thrill of a hot kill. Hunger propels— hunger
for blood and bone and pulsing life, yet
always, too, appetite for more, something unnameable.
Like all predators, we
pursue death, robust, eager, quivering, because.
. . it’s never our own deaths we see. | ||