Quinceañera
At fifteen,
her dreams were of Fidel
and
Che—not
blue-black
nights of romance,
nor knights
in shining armor.
She wanted
to fly on the back of a Quetzal,
soar like
Icarus on melt-proof wings
among white
doves,
Olympic
spirit
and corn
blue Mexican skies.
She wanted
to march
con
intelectuales y campesinos
through
Tlatelolco
down
ancient streets once paved with gold
now bathed
in blood
Centro
Cultural turned slaughterhouse
a few
escaped
clutching
dreams of peace
and justice
for all.
American Bonsai
Above Big Sur
you cling to craggy soil
your sinews remember
black loam
your lace canopy…
cherry blossoms in the air
A distant flute trills.
The little kimono—aqua and melon—
flutters under glass.
A baby doll brought from Tokyo
rustles in his case.
Home is in the air,
and, so as not to scare anyone,
you wait until late at night
when winds are still and
fog veils the coastline.
You pull up your ancient roots,
tip-toe inland and
graft yourself onto American soil.
You travel in the mist like that…
implant yourself before dawn like that,
then rush back to your perch
on cypress covered ridges
and coastal morning fog.
Dreams
I.
It rained tonight.
The amber streetlight,
the feathery leaves of mesquite,
the soft wisps of rain.
We’re talking again, he said, me and Samia
They
broke up when she laughed over 911
Is that good, I said. Did you smooth it out?
Yeah, he said, but I don’t know,
she brings up this love thing again.
How’d you do that, I said.
I don’t know, he said,
picturing the rain in her hair
5000 miles away.
II.
Sedona’s the only landscape of red
Steve knows
and the summer tide, the only sea of red
he knows
He’s sound asleep by 9.
III.
Peter Jennings sports a 5 o’clock shadow
round the clock these days.
His once honeyed voice drones and cracks
over pictures of a fairy tale gone wrong.
Bastards, Steve says,
Lucky, I said, that you’ve gone this long…
IV.
Perhaps, the Sikh killed in Phoenix yesterday,
means less than Wall Street crashing today.
Just ask the women in Juarez.
Mindfulness is trivial
when collective passions
seek revenge.
The president might be tempted to declare war, I
said,
Find any excuse, I said.
You always have to be so negative, he said.
V.
Larry’s worried about me.
Can’t you just avoid talking about it, he said.
Avoid it, I sighed.
Carmen snuck out of Santiago into exile
in the middle of the night
Rene slipped back into El Salvador into the awaiting arms
of
Contras
and Che’s skeleton is missing both hands!
VI.
I called Irma last night to talk.
Do you want to meet, she said.
The tension is familiar.
I grew up half-breed among fair-skinned girls.
I learned English with a twisted tongue and forked pen.
I was born on the border where folks meet in mistrust.
I traveled secretly to Russia.
I cannot be too careful.
Only in my dreams, do I speak freely in my own home.
VII.
This first day of the eleventh month
is overcast. In
crisp autumn air and corn blue sky,
I swaddle memories of the dead.
My heart quivers with gratitude
Swells with blessings
I have no reason to mourn.
For Dario
He came
from a long line
of ilusos,
provincial folk,
unsophisticated,
unsuspecting,
never
expecting to be
shot in the
back
in the
middle of the night
by his own
brother
or
father. I forget
whose
crosshairs he walked into
who just
followed orders that night
whose heart
exploded like watermelon
fallen from
a truck.
Covenants
His grandfathers did
your
work in Mexico.
In WWII,
you
had them remove my fathers
from Tijuana, Mexicali, San Luis.
You
had them piled into cattle trucks,
interned in Mexico City
where
my father found his father
in some colonia…
where men with names like
Katsurayama and Tanaka
slept like sardines
on dirt packed tight.
After
your war,
Miguel Aleman
baptized his grandfathers
bracero
and sent them to
you
to harvest
your lettuce
your citrus
your apples
wherever
you
needed.
These days
the odds are still the same.
In desert blackjack,
you
lie in wait
under the cover
of darkness
under the color
of law.
Family
Album
he studies pictures of Emilio
round obsidian holes on his back
opaque film over his eyes
thick raised marks about his neck
the loose pile of gray
that is now his face
he studies pictures of Rosaura
purplish pools around her breasts
bite and scratch marks on her sides
inner thighs black and blue
manicured nails now grimy
and muddy brown
perhaps, the man would want to look at these
these photos of my mother
at the border crossing station
in the ‘56 Bel Air
she’d been across the line all day
helping grandma all day
starched, khaki green official
makes a face
holds his breath
waves her through
would he want to look at these
these pictures of indignities
dripping off her face like spit
how about these photos
of my father in the driver’s seat
white knuckles on the steering wheel
stoicism and ulcered gut
he stares straight ahead, frozen
like on his green card
how about this picture
of a samurai heart
ribboned with razor wire